2008-12-02(Tue)
I want to be a small bird in his arms.. why does he hurt me?
I want to be the cat he fondles
I want to be a blanket to cover him..
"I can't depend on you" were his words..
2008-12-01(Mon)
I was watching movies by Ki-Duk Kim during the whole weekends.. Bad Guy, Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter and Spring, Samaritan Girl, the bow, The empty houses, Breath...
I couldn't stop.. The empty houses was watched twice.
He is really a great director, I'm so grateful to him for his works..
I didn't chat with T. tonight, was waiting for him, but he didn't log in.
It's interesting.. why?..
two days ago T. said me that I'm attrective, and that is why he was worried about me.. haha.. he made me laugh ^^ He is so naive..
and then he added.. that he was going to like me seriouslly.. I was looking at these words for 10-15 mins.. but I couldn't understand he meant..
What does that mean "to be going to like someone"?.. either you like him/her or not.. don't you?..
There is sense of lightness in my heart..may be.. I'm in love..?
2008-11-29(Sat)
If you are written by male over 35 y.o. What does he want from you?
I know.. know.. why didn't he write to woman around his age?.. Why did he shoose me who is younger him over 10 years..
I wonder.. ok, i answered him.. i'm not sure if he is a good person.. i hope so
2008-11-29(Sat)
I would like to be a writer..... sometimes it seems there are so many thoughts in my mind.
I want to share them with everyone..
Do you know a band Limp Bizkit?..
They have a song "Behind blue eyes".. No one knows what it's like to be a bad man, to be a sad man... behind blue eyes. No one knows what' it's like to be hated, to be faded to telling only lies..
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There are such words: no one know how to say that they're sorry and don't worry i'm not telling lies
Love the song.. it reminds me my shcool times.. espesially my last year.
I want to be other person.. I'm tired to be Nothing here.....sand....time is just sand
2008-11-24(Mon)
Oh.. this is my city.. night streetscape
